When all is said and done (eng)

Hello everybody!

Long time no see.  

You have the right to know why I was silent recently. It's not a secret I changed my job and maybe in not-so distant future I will create a video about the reason why I had to do this. 

Right now, I am just not ready and please be understanding about that. I have to say that I got like a massive life learn lesson recently. A lot has changed. I was in hospital during summer, but that actually caused a good change. I stopped being friends with a person who I cared about like a LOT. I would never think that we stop talking to each other but life changes and people go separate ways and we just have to accept it. I was so annoyed about that and didn't want to accept the fact that our friendship is over and had been over even before. I was lying to myself that everything was fine but to be honest it wasn't for such a long time, but I was too scared to admit it. 

Losing a friend is never easy. Especially the one you thought will be with you forever. 

This situation taught me to not give as many chances to people as I used to. I have to say I am still a bit surprised that this step had to been made. If you've ever been in this sort of situation, do not give up. There are always people who would be here and there for you when you need it. Sometimes you just need time. Time heals all wounds. Do not forget about that.

As I said I changed my job and other life lesson which I got is that some people do not like these ones with passion.  They try to destroy things which are beautiful without any reason. I've always wanted to be a teacher and because of these type of people I had to quit and look for other job. That wasn't easy and you have to believe me that September was an awful month for me. I was in such mess that I didn't want to celebrate my birthday... But it's a very long story and as I said, maybe in future I will open up and chat about that.

I started working in kindergarten which to be honest never's been my dream. During studies I was a person who didn't pay attention to subjects connected to kindergarten, because my aim was to teach in school. Life surprises. And here I am, in kindergarten with 4-year-old children. And do you know what? I actually like it. I don't want to say too much, because this subject is still fresh for me and I'm just not ready to go into details.

I have to say that surviving that period of time wasn't easy. I asked a lot of people for help, which I actually got, but in the end I knew it was me who had to finish this bloody mess. 

Ok, no more talking about this until I explain more in future.

I was considering quitting this blog, but realised that I actually like writing on it, so nothing changes here. I cannot promise I will write something any single week or even once a week, but I can try to write something twice a month. Fair enough?

I am now working 7 hours per day. On Tuesdays I have 2 extra hours and on Mondays and Wednesdays I have also my english classes which means I don't have that much time as I used to. What is more, I am still studying. I have one term to finish and then I could say that mission is accomplished. 

Do not let other people change your mind about yourselves. I keep fingers crossed for you guys and hope to see you very soon.

Gosia

P.S You are the best and don't let others tell you it's not true.